"Sittin on a plane, sittin on a plane, feeling like crap while sitting on plane"

(I wrote this on a flight back to Texas, leaving North Carolina)

On a plane to Texas. Memory's, reflections, emotions all running through my mind. This weekend was fun. I was able to surprise my friends in NC. My biggest thing right now is the goodbye. I woke up knowing what I was gonna have to do. Say goodbye. The word carries a bitter taste in my mouth. You know the song "Enough to let me go?" by Switchfoot? Well that song sums up my life experiences. My motto should be "Do you love me enough to say goodbye?". That's better. To alot of people I come off as a total jerk. I'm really not. I just don't want another friend. Because at some point I will have to say it, "goodbye".

Why is it that my life is like this? Whats God's plan? The big surprise. I cant wait for the day where my goodbyes turn into hello. I guess the absence of someone accentuates the need for them. If so, I really need you. I only have a few good friends. They really are out of my league. In my book, the girls in my "sacred quad" of friends set a perfect example of the kind of girls guys need to look for. And the guys in my "quad" are great examples of good christian guys. I think what separates them is there self control. There are alot of guys that will take advantage of a girl. But they wont. As a guy, I give them amazing respect. Only if everyone could have my friends. What a world it would be.

When I was hanging out with all of them I remembered the name to a Switchfoot song "This is home". They really are home.

Ironically just the other day I was thinking. My life is fandangtastic. Even though I don't live near my friends. I still have them, what a great life.